Diosa de Aguas Calmadas

Clarity becomes a blur as I imagine what your lips would feel like

To think I’ve been with you in past lives

And yet we’ve only yet to meet in this lifetime

The feelings are out of my control

I’ve let your waters breach the hull of my ship

The water goddess of past live’s dreams

I slip far into your deep blue sea

Intertwining as one as we have done for eternity

Dream: Maroon 5 and A Mermaid

I had a dream last night that I was at a Maroon 5 concert and the stadium started flooding. This song came on and I was rescued by a mermaid with emerald green eyes and Silver and White hair. This is very symbolic to me and this song (although a throwback) has been a favorite this year. Let the dream interpretation begin! In the meantime, please enjoy some great music.

Maroon 5 – This Love

I was so high, I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye as she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice ’cause I won’t say goodbye anymore, woah, woah, woah

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Oh, kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

But, oh, this love has taken its toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice ’cause I won’t say goodbye anymore woah, woah, woah

I’ll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything is alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
‘Cause I know that’s what you want me to do

This love has taken its toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
Her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice ’cause I won’t say goodbye anymore

This love has taken its toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
My heart is breaking in front of me
She said goodbye too many times before

This love has taken its toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
Her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice ’cause I won’t say goodbye anymore

APOLOGIES

L U C I D I T Y

My dreams are revisiting my subconscious

It is an arduous experience

To return to those things which I have buried deep down

And yet when I remember I am in deep slumber

I regain control of my power

Lucidity spreads through the dreamscape

Those that chase me realize the shift in power

And scramble to disappear

Back into the deep shadows

A refining experience

A metaphor of my conscious  world

Lucid dreaming teaches me

I have nothing in this world to fear for

 

I N V I N C I B L E

How can you be so hard on yourself

You’re healing generations of karma

Trailblazing into your future

The likes of which no one can predict

All while cleansing your trauma

Give yourself a break

You passion filled soul

Not many would be able to trudge through your path

Let alone in your shoes

Chapters

Life is a book

With chapters unfinished

Where strangers met

A tale where lovers entered

And lovers left

A story fettered

With things unsaid

The next chapter is always meant

To contain more wisdom

And love to mend

S O L I D A R I T Y

I never considered her weak

I am hardest on those I know can take it

Her trauma is not a light burden

I never for once second believed that

I set a higher standard for her than she could bare

A move typical of my father

How often I resent that I am so much like him

But him and I share one thing in common

Despite our irrational fucked up actions

Our intention comes from love

A deformed love created by the monsters who didn’t love us

I’m sorry that I made you relive things you have not conquered

It is not my space to force you to face your demons

But fret not girl, your strength lies in your vulnerability

Let the world see you bleed

Let the blood harden and turn burgundy

Walk among them like the monster you’ve become

 

Let them see the darkness in your eyes

Sometimes that monster is the only one that can carry us

Straight back up into paradise

Un-f*ck-withable

Do not let others phase you

Stay in your power

Only immature and lost souls

Cowards of spirit, body, and mind

Aim to bring others’ vibes down

They cannot stand someone

Living wholly

In the same waters

That cause them daily to drown

You have a choice

Be an effect of others

Or a cause to them

Stand up straight king

Straighten out your crown

PAIN

I don’t do well with pain

I’m not used to allowing others to make me feel it

I’m quite fond of running from it myself

I take it as you would medicine

You know, taking it as it is

Will make you feel better in the end

But the process of taking it in is a b*****

If love is the opposite of fear

Then why does love make me so afraid

 

Misunderstood Soul

Soulful loving is not stopped by worldly obstacles

It is blind to the works of the ego

Soulful loving waters the soil without judging the flower

You know nothing of soulful loving darling